Exhausted? Anxious? Feeling burned out and can’t find time to rest? I gotcha! In 2003 I was sleep deprived, struggling with Post-partum depression, and constantly on-call taking care of newborn twins, my toddler and my oldest, who was starting kindergarten. I had a supportive but busy husband who was planning to plant a new church. I had family nearby and an amazing church community offering me meals and care. But inwardly, I was losing faith in who I had always known God to be. Doubt and inadequacy plagued my thoughts and all I knew how to do was to keep going. Afterall, my kids and husband were depending on me.
Entre yoga. A friend invited me to take a class at her studio. As a Christian who grew up in an evangelical church community, I had never done nor frankly, given any thought to what yoga was. I was in weekly counseling with a therapist, had begun taking an anti-depressant for the post-partum depression but that was the extent of my healing and self-care practices. This class, called Prayers of the Heart and Body, was a restorative yoga class that included long extended rest and silent centering prayer at the end. I think that I slept through almost every rest and meditation time! But something began to change in me. I would leave class feeling rested, lighter, ready to re-enter the high demands of my life. This was the beginning of my life-changing encounter and now life-long journey with yoga.
My practice began as life-saving self-care but gradually, it became a practice self-study or as the Yoga Sutras call it, Svadhiyaya. I discovered the dis-connectedness between my mind, body and Spirit. Diving deeply into yoga practice has re-connected me to myself and to God in ways that has healed brokenness and transformed old habitual patterns into new ways of being freer and lighter.
Along the way, I encountered a group of Christians who love yoga and retreat together led by Fr. Tom Ryan, CSP with the North American Office for Ecumenical and Interfaith Relations for his community, the Paulist Fathers. Simultaneously, my husband was discovering the contemplative practices from the Patristics or Early Church Fathers’ writings. My time on the mat grew beyond being about personal healing and self-study, it became a sacred place of rediscovering God and rediscovering engagement in the world. This intersection of Yoga and Christian practice has been a rich experience that keeps flowing into greater connection, healing and now, service for others, perhaps like yourself, who are finding themselves in exhausted, worn-out places.
I’m a wife, a mom of 4 young-adult children, a Christian and a yogini. I have 19 years of experience in yoga and my passion is to help people not only heal but to live a deeply transformative abundant life through traditional yoga and contemplative practices.